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The next thing that got me angry today is the Nevada DMV website. I got a call from my new job in Phoenix. I have been asking them for a job offer letter for the last three weeks. I was told they could get a letter together for me but not until they can get my driving record. I did not get this call until 3:30pm. I looked online and you can order your driver's record from there. I thought, great, and I got everything together to place the order. When I put ALL the information into the computer I hit the process order button and I got sorry but our systems are down. Aaaaaggggg!!! I was told I cannot get my job offer letter until I get my driving record to them so something else to hang me up.
Finally I have noticed I have a lot less patience with the children right now. I have turned into an angry mommy with the children. I don't want to be like that to them. I really don't want to be like that when I have so little time left to be with them before I have to be gone all the time too. James cried to me several times today because John did not come by tonight or yesterday. I am worried about him feeling abandoned when John will be gone and then I will be gone too. James is all ready asking me to come to my room and lay down my bed next to me. He snuggles close and I let him play the Kindle. It makes him happy and I enjoy the time with him but this is something he has never done before.
I know my anger is related to me being stressed, depressed and anxious. Why shouldn't I be? I have about 10 days to be out of my home. I am not fully packed. I have no help in getting packed. I have no place to put my stuff even if it was packed. I am not sure what I will be able to take with me. I have no idea where we are going and I am worried we will be homeless. I don't know who will be watching my children, how I am going to be able to pay for it and how/when I am going to be able to start my new job. There are just so many things in the air. I may need to see a doctor for something to help me control the stress and anger. This is a lot to be going through!