Sunday, December 30, 2012
The Interesting Things People Say
I get a rare moment of respite from the children. I am sitting in a local Starbucks. I had been working on material for my job (the one they hopefully will not fire me from because I cannot find a sitter). I wanted to take a break and write a post before I go home.
A couple of thoughts. First is a message sent to me via Facebook back when I had the verbal brawl in a chat room because the Moms of Multiples (MOMs) thought I was a fake. I just found it today in a spam folder. The message said...
Hello.. I know you saw my post on the Triplet board. There are people there now defending you now. I just wanted to say I am sorry if I offended you. I was just skeptical but I am no longer. Your story is so Sad I think people wanted it to be fake.
Anyway again I am sorry, if that means anything :(
I thought this note was sweet but it also disturbs me some. Do people really think what I write and my life is fake? In the end, I honestly do not care, but on the other hand I would hate to have people think I am lying. One of my BIGGEST HATES in life are liars.
I know my life is difficult at the moment. I realize that myself. Just like I know all the kids have problems, I am over-weight, the sun will rise tomorrow and I will have to watch children's TV programming when I watch TV with the children. There are just certain realities in life! On the flip side though I KNOW things will settle down for the children and I one day. That I will be able to get the things I need for my children on my own (even if we are living in a hovel to make it happen). My children will grow-up and know of the love (and sometimes sacrifices) I made for them. I will do it all gladly (though sometimes, painfully for me). My life is difficult but it will not always be so because *I* am a survivor and will persevere.
Okay, I am digressing.... The second point. Still looking for a nanny. Not sure, if I cannot work something out, what I am going to do. I will be placing another ad soon. I know looking for a nanny over the holidays is not helpful. I am hoping I will have more response after New Years. If I cannot make this work I have no "good" back up plan. This worries me. I specialize in making 18 (ok, maybe not quite that many...lol) back-up plans for when something does not work in my life. I HAVE to get the child care issue under control before I get fired. Sigh, life is difficult, not sad, just difficult.