There is SO much going on. Where should I start? I guess the first is the search for a new nanny. I really think at this point that caring for the children full-time was too much for Bailey physically and that is the cause of most of the current problems. I am looking for someone to shoulder the responsibility full-time. It is VERY hard! There have been several comments that the pay is too low. Not very constructive criticism there! LOL I am well aware of that! When I have contacted nanny services or daycares that could handle the children I was told the cost would be $2000 per month. As a state worker that is about how much I bring home in pay. John pays me $1000 and I currently get $600 from SSI ( I don't think that is going to last). So I get $3600 a month. By the time I pay rent, bills, groceries there is little left. That money is ALL I have to pay for child care. That is the way it is...I can't change anything at the moment.